Finances are hard. Budgeting is hard. And lately, finances haven’t been as plentiful as I would like. With my recent move up north, and the job hunt, my sources of income have been limited. And that being said, I have been stressed. I was supposed to start my new job at Starbucks this past Monday, but the background check has been taking a very long (and unnatural) amount of time to go through. This week has been a day-by-day basis for planning, because I have no clue when I’m going to start. Needless to say, its a little frustrating.
This also makes it hard to go and meet people. On top of that, each Sunday we have been snowed in, and churches have been cancelled. Again, super frustrating.
But, as frustrated as I have been, I continue to praise God. I’m in a storm, but I know God is my deliver. I don’t believe in consequences or happenstance. I believe that everything happens for a reason. This week I read Psalm 105 during my quiet time. It goes as follows:
1 Give praise to the Lord, proclaim his name;
make known among the nations what he has done.
2 Sing to him, sing praise to him;
tell of all his wonderful acts.
3 Glory in his holy name;
let the hearts of those who seek the Lord rejoice.
4 Look to the Lord and his strength;
seek his face always.
5 Remember the wonders he has done,
his miracles, and the judgments he pronounced,
6 you his servants, the descendants of Abraham,
his chosen ones, the children of Jacob.
7 He is the Lord our God;
his judgments are in all the earth.
8 He remembers his covenant forever,
the promise he made, for a thousand generations,
9 the covenant he made with Abraham,
the oath he swore to Isaac.
10 He confirmed it to Jacob as a decree,
to Israel as an everlasting covenant:
11 “To you I will give the land of Canaan
as the portion you will inherit.”
12 When they were but few in number,
few indeed, and strangers in it,
13 they wandered from nation to nation,
from one kingdom to another.
14 He allowed no one to oppress them;
for their sake he rebuked kings:
15 “Do not touch my anointed ones;
do my prophets no harm.”
16 He called down famine on the land
and destroyed all their supplies of food;
17 and he sent a man before them—
Joseph, sold as a slave.
18 They bruised his feet with shackles,
his neck was put in irons,
19 till what he foretold came to pass,
till the word of the Lord proved him true.
20 The king sent and released him,
the ruler of peoples set him free.
21 He made him master of his household,
ruler over all he possessed,
22 to instruct his princes as he pleased
and teach his elders wisdom.
23 Then Israel entered Egypt;
Jacob resided as a foreigner in the land of Ham.
24 The Lord made his people very fruitful;
he made them too numerous for their foes,
25 whose hearts he turned to hate his people,
to conspire against his servants.
26 He sent Moses his servant,
and Aaron, whom he had chosen.
27 They performed his signs among them,
his wonders in the land of Ham.
28 He sent darkness and made the land dark—
for had they not rebelled against his words?
29 He turned their waters into blood,
causing their fish to die.
30 Their land teemed with frogs,
which went up into the bedrooms of their rulers.
31 He spoke, and there came swarms of flies,
and gnats throughout their country.
32 He turned their rain into hail,
with lightning throughout their land;
33 he struck down their vines and fig trees
and shattered the trees of their country.
34 He spoke, and the locusts came,
grasshoppers without number;
35 they ate up every green thing in their land,
ate up the produce of their soil.
36 Then he struck down all the firstborn in their land,
the firstfruits of all their manhood.
37 He brought out Israel, laden with silver and gold,
and from among their tribes no one faltered.
38 Egypt was glad when they left,
because dread of Israel had fallen on them.
39 He spread out a cloud as a covering,
and a fire to give light at night.
40 They asked, and he brought them quail;
he fed them well with the bread of heaven.
41 He opened the rock, and water gushed out;
it flowed like a river in the desert.
42 For he remembered his holy promise
given to his servant Abraham.
43 He brought out his people with rejoicing,
his chosen ones with shouts of joy;
44 he gave them the lands of the nations,
and they fell heir to what others had toiled for—
45 that they might keep his precepts
and observe his laws.
Though a longer passage than I usually post, I want to still share the importance of this. In this Psalm, the lives of Joseph, Jacob, and Israel were highlighted, and they weren’t always smooth running. That goes the same for a Christian’s life. Oftentimes, non-Christians look at a Christian’s life and think that it is full of ease, without trouble or trial. But, oh! Quite the contrary! Some of the more famous stories of the Bible highlight the trials and troubles of the ‘greats.’
This week, as I have been frustrated and worried, I keep on coming back to Psalm 105. David wrote of singing and praising God, even in his troubles. I have taken comfort in these words, because, even though I might be going through a hard time, I know that God will deliver. I don’t know how He will answer my prayers, but I know He hears them.
So, I will continue to seek His face and sing praises, knowing that God is good, all the time.